Boo!

I am up 2 pounds from last week. I am feeling very pouty.

I have been having a really hard time with food cravings and it seems like my points disappear so fast each day. But I worked really hard at self control last week. I saved all my weekly points for the weekend (like usual) and then only used a few. So I was WAY under my alotment. And still gained.

I am very crabby. I know it could just be hormones or retaining water or something. But still, it's discouraging to work so hard and GAIN weight.

Ugh...

I hate my shrinking breasts. They look deflated and sad.

Awesome

Shopping is getting more fun. I'm not always limited to the plus size section of the department stores. I'm trying to only buy clearance, but it's hard to resist really cute clothes. And heels! Heels are much more comfortable.

Planning my outfits for the convention has also been fun. I feel good and feel like I look good.

Made it!

I have lost 50 pounds.

Mini goal achieved,

"Obesity Epidemic"

I was looking around online at BMI calculators trying to figure out how much weight I have to lose in order to no longer be classified as obese. Turns out my goal weight of 195 will still keep me in the obese category. The lowest weigth I was considering going for was maybe 175, which will still classify me as overweight. According to the government, my "healthy weigth" range is 118-159.

At my height of 5'7", I would look like a holocaust victim if I weighed 118 pounds. At 159 I'll be sorely lacking in the hip and breast department.

IMO the only reason we have an obesity 'epidemic' is because the CDC is labeling EVERYONE as obese.

WOOHOO!

I bought a cute summer dress on clearance today at Kohl's. It's a size XL, but it was from the misses department- not the plus size section.

A whole new world has been opened up to me, now. Haha!

I got Mc Donald's for dinner tonight. The bacon ranch salad with grilled chicken is only 6 points. If I take it home and add my own fat free ranch dressing, then I can justify a side of fries. Except tonight I got so full on salad that I was unable to finish my fries.

I DONT KNOW WHO I AM ANYMORE! lulz