THAT IS NOT A REWARD!

Down another 2 pounds today at my weigh-in. I hate when that little box pops up and says, "Congratulations! You lost weight this week. Your new daily point allowance is...."

Losing yet another daily point is not a reward. Also that's 2 weeks in a row I've lost a daily point. I'm disturbed at that. I started at 45, and am now down to 39 daily points. But 2 of those 6 were taken away in the last 2 weeks. Um... not cool. I'd like to lose them a bit more gradually, thanks. Fuckers.

Last night I happened across a sweet clearance sale and got 2 pairs of jeans for $6 each- a size 20 and a size 18. Good lord, the 18s look so tiny!

I am wearing the brand new size 20s today. It feels strange to be wearing brand new jeans. No stretch denim, either. Every other pair of pants I own has some degree of lycra in the fabric. I am kind of shocked at how I look in the mirror.

Current measurements:
Bust (at fullest point) 47", down 2.5"
Waist 44", down 4"
Hips 54", down 3"

Current jeans size: 20 (down from 24)
Current bra size: 42DD (down from 44DD)

Last summer I gave away the vast majority of my smaller sized clothing. I had everything from 14-24 in my closet, but when a friend had gastric bypass and lost a bunch of weight I figured she would be able to make better use of the size 20 and smaller stuff. The one bummer is that I had pants that used to fit me perfect in every size down to 14. And now, it would be sooo nice to have all those so I could try them on and see how close I am to what sizes. I'm attending a clothing swap this weekend. Hopefully I can aquire some pants in various sizes. All of mine are too big, anyway.

What I really want right now is to eat an entire bag of Doritos.

I have been getting to the end of my days with a LOT of points left, lately. I don't feel like I've been eating less for breakfast or lunch or snacks, and then it hit me.... I was saving a lot of points up so I could go for drinks after work or drink wine at home in the evenings. But ever since I met my boyfriend (who is not a drinker), I have been drinking less and less. He must be a good influence.

Back on track.

I'm down 4 pounds from last week. I think perhaps I was retaining water. I did have a depo-provera shot 2 days before my weigh in. I'd also eaten a lot of salty foods.

I'm pleased to be back on track. Only 8 more pounds to my next big milestone.

Boo!

Weighed in yesterday. I'm up a pound from last week. BOO!!!!

I probably ate too much over the weekend. I have not been super diligent about tracking on the weekends, trusting that since I had x number of activity points and 49 weekly points (that I always save for the weekends) that I was safe. And it's been working...

On one hand it annoys me. Adds to my feeling of being overwhelmed. I mean, it's not like I spent the weekend shoveling food in my face nonstop. And during the week I don't always use up all my points, either.

On the other hand, I kinda wonder if I should be making a point to eat more during the week. At the very least, using all my daily points. That and maybe not show up hungry to parties.

Ugh...

For weeks I've been "weight loss, yay!" But today I am feeling overwhelmed by how far I still have to go. It's the beginning of month 4. Month 4 of.... 12? 14 Maybe? Who knows how long it will take.

I'm not tired of the diet or anything. Not right now anyway. I'm kind of used to it now. And I'm also so used to eating low fat foods that many of my former favorite things now make me sick. It's a great deterrent. I don't miss pizza at all anymore. Last night I had some points to burn and I had Chex Mix. But I nibbled at half the bag. I didn't "need" to eat the whole thing. Huge progress!

But still, I guess I'm just anxious to reach the finish line.

10%

As of today, I am down 29 pounds. According to WW, I have now lost 10% of my body weight. Woo!

Let's hope...

I called my insurance company today to find out if the membership fees for Weight Watchers Online counted as a reimbursable expense for my flex account. They said maybe, but I have to get a letter of medical necessity from my doctor first. That should not be a problem, considering joining WW was her idea in the first place.

Gonna have to make a doctor's appointment!